Best Snacks (You’ve Never Heard Of)

KABAYA PANDA CHOCOLATE COOKIES, $2.20 from ThreeSixty Marketplace

If you’re ever having a bad day, these cute and tasty cookies will cheer you up in no time. A box of Kabaya Panda Chocolate Cookies features panda-shaped chocolate-covered biscuits that melt in your mouth. And as an added bonus, the pandas have different facial expressions on each cookie.

source: http://scene.sg/food/best-snacks-youve-never-heard-of/

I just realised this was never posted. Should be more than a month old. 

I feel like quietly, everything is falling apart. Things that were once certain, God has shown right now more than ever to rely on him and that nothing is certain. God has blessed me with wonderful interests in a lot of things and I tend to be very open to new things and willing to learn. But I don't know how to utilize it properly. God has blessed me with a creative, easily inspired and I believe a rather sharp mind. But I turn around getting mixed up what is real and what is not. Making many things harder to believe even if I want them to be and making lies feel so real on the other hand. Suddenly I am thrown off shore, finding myself lost on which direction to take. 

This is for you, my love <3

I hope you'd one day come to find out how much I truly love you. I have never loved any other like this and knew none other that I ever will or ever could. You know I call you my rainbow, right? It doesn't just represnt all happy and unicons and butterflies or chocolates. A full rainbow has at least five colors and each colors (to me) represents a different season; a different emotion. I like it that we're happy, I like it that we're sweet. I like it when we get all excited and adventurous or just clumsy and lame. But without a doubt, there will be times when we're down or angry. I guess it's not wrong to be feeling angry or down but how we choose to deal with them. Yes my love, one is choosing silence over harsh words when angry (which is btw very meaningful) and I guess the natural reaction towards being down is to push the matter/s farther down and trying to be happy for everyone on the outside. You know I've thought about it and I feel that everyone has a painful side, deep down. And the true emotion to seek for is not really happiness but peace. And at this moment I finally realise what giving peace to each other at mass truly means. Right now I know that it's really tough on you about where everything or anything is going for you in the long run. I love you so much that it's sometimes hard to watch you worry so much. I really pray that you'd lift up all your worries to the Lord. Because I believe (and I know you do) that He will open the doors for you and close the ones that are not. I thank God for all these opportunities my love, for letting us come through to this stage, to have to stop figuring out what to do and start relying on Him and listening to Him? Cause my love, as I've said many times that I believe we will come out stronger from all of these. So I pray that He will give you the strength to strive, the courage to make the move, the wisdom to know what to do and use you to bring Him glory. You have done us proud my love, believe it. I am so proud of you. I want you to know I am here, to listen, to learn and to love you. 

I love you, with all my heart.

There's just so much right now and I've been feeling very much lonely for awhile now lately. With God's grace, I have been softly reminded everyday to continually have faith in Him and just be worry-free. But life do has it's moments where we find ourselves battling against what we don't want. I know it hasn't been very hard on my lately, because I'll always know that "He will not give me what I can't handle", but I guess it has really jolted me emotionally with all the back and forth, through and fro. 

And  " there are times when I feel it’s easier to literally die for Christ (like some terrorist puts a gun to your head and asks you to deny God or else he kills you) than to fully, fully live for Christ." - Chloe
I literally have said to myself that exact same line and never really thought it would be right to think of it that way and never told anyone because I am afraid. But after reading this on her blog, I just felt like I was free to feel it, but still caution.

So very honestly right now, I feel like that in times like these. Not that I am depressed or living an unhappy life. It's that I feel like I could do more but I just can't figure. I know that no one can ever earn His mercy by no matter how much we do because His grace and love is above all that. But that I feel trapped at the moment, I know I want to do so much more. I want to do something that would make the world better. I feel like as time past me by and each day as I grow into being in this Christ-loving shell (because I realise I have been looking at people who are non-believers in a way which is wrong and bad, but I do admit I have been at times), when I see people walking on the street, people at the bus stop, folks at the park by the bench crying, they always says "Pray for them". And I honestly always want to but do not know how to and always end up saying " If only they knew Jesus, things would be better, they will learn that life is not about money, not about just living day by day for the sake of living, not about how much you can achieve at school or at work and be on top or falling in and out of love with another human being but do not understand the One who made it all happen, showed us what love is and is still trying to do so. " 

I want God to come into my life, (remembering one of the service awhile back when this guy was just showed which are the things to get rid off in his room alone one night) like I want that to happen to me. For Him to come and tell me exactly what to get rid off because it is not pulling us closer. 

I want to live a life loving others, each and everyone whether they are believers or not and above all that, walking next to Him through it all. I have dreams of working in a certain place, something I've dreamt of since forever and at one point put that aside because I kept telling myself I couldn't. And now when I have the confidence to go for it again, I know that if He just showed me a sign of what I can do for Him, to bring Him glory, I would not even hesitate to just walk away and never look back from that. 

I am just waiting for Him to tell me what it is. But for now I am very grateful for each day. Dull day or not, I have now come to be grateful for all that he has provided, one way or another. And today it is that He has showed me how much of a wonderful creation my grandma was. Today she has showed me how she lives her life, she lives it to the best she can, though cautiously. And when I always thought all she does was nag at everything, she showed me that she actually does take a lot of things with a pinch of salt. Above all, she's showed how much love she has in her, so vulnerable yet so valuable. (If you catch what I am trying to say)

So today I thank God for her. <3

 It is not the first time I am feeling like this. Aside from the fact that the situation is a whole lot different right now with so much incredible things going on. It's just not the first time that I feel defeated, left out or basically pushed aside. So since God has done so much for me for the past few months, I have seen changes and realised it really doesn't matter what others think of me but only what He thinks of me, and despite how I have been and/or still am He still loves me unconditionally. He clothes me, feeds me, puts family in my love to show me an example of his love and affection for me, bless me with a partner to love and be loved. 

I have had this issue for the past 3 years and for just that very moment that I let my guard down and try to put myself in front, I see how cruel things can get. And like I said earlier, this time it feels different now that things have changed. I may feel defeated or left out but I know there are more to come where He would put in my path ahead. For now I should just get pass this without any bitterness or anger. I shall just be joyfully in peace and not worry about a thing. (: 

 It has suddenly hit me, looking at all the people in my life right now. Those doing the things they have always wanted, achieving so much out of the grace of God. I want them too. And someone once said that " If you see it and you want it, want it! " (If you know what I am trying to say). That God wouldn't show us something that we would want but not be able to give it to us if we really want it. (Aside from the fact that if it's not the way he planned it for you). Point I am trying to make is that, I realised none of them were HANDED all those greatness overnight but that they had worked their way there. And I want it too. I want to be at 40 thinking back at what I had to do to be where I would be in the future. 

For now, it's back to the books. 

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the future, to be exact, my future. What would I achieve in the years to come in terms of what kind of job/s will I be doing, where would God lead me to, do I start pursuing what I want to do from now or should I be doing some things that I don't really like just to probably get the qualification to get to where I want to be? 

All of a sudden, life's too short. And I keep thinking, that I don't want to be doing something I don't like if it's just to be able to fit into today's society. What more, I have met the love of my life and ever so ready to claim it. It has dawned onto me that what really matters is in the heart, and there is not much point in just going by a 9 to 5 job, five days a week in an office, taking the train every morning and evening squeezing with people who are going through the exact same routine as you and say "that is life". That is NOT life as He planned (unless you're one who loves your job); a friend once tweet " Public transport: where thousands of human lives intersect but little humanity is displayed. "  See? You can't deny it's true and although this is just referring to public transport, don't you also realise it happens a lot in how we go about our daily lives?